To be honest, I’m starting to care less and less about this situation. Because the more I think of it, the more I realize… hey wait, my future is gonna turn out better this way. Because if things were different right now, if things hadn’t gone badly, I’d probably slack a lot more in school. My personality would’ve changed, and I would’ve grown a pretty big ego from it. I don’t want the future me to be like that. I want to be humble, and learn that things will not always go my way. I want to grow up successful and smart, not only fun-loving and competitive. That’s not right. There’s a reason things are the way they are. I need to focus on school, to build myself up. Prepare myself for a bright future. I’d rather work my ass off and be miserable today so I could have a better tomorrow, than slack and be happy today but have a stressful tomorrow. Sooner or later, my hard work will pay off… there’s no exact time line for these things. My reward may come in 10 days, or maybe 10 years. Either way, I’m willing to work for the better, and put behind myself all the things that have been hindering me to see straight.

I need to pick myself up, ‘cause shit.. things have been so bad lately. I failed all my English quizzes so far. Fancy me, huh.